becoming free

Posted by ">Matt on June 12, 2004 at 09:28:23

As a young hippy drug oriented person in 1972 if the family wasn't there I wonder how far I would have gotten. I was ripe. Lonely searching for truth and meaning and wanted by my gov draft evader for trying to find truth. The basic truths saved me so even after IRFER'S Beware I had a hard time dealing with my let down feelings. The Good? I learned the word and loved it. I'm so grateful for Jesus in my heart but what happened. I read all the testamonies and was in shock. Davidito and exctra.I guess the movement started with dedacated sharing Jesusand it touched so many.
But then the collisions bang oh that wasn't the Family that was just this one place. I seemed to enter places where I had to stand for my gut feeling and convictions this made me a week non aqbsolutely obediant week person so I tried to keep it in. After so many years of service how could you suddenly chuck it all and become one of those bad doubters . My second time in I kept it in. I didn't like the boy whio wouldn't. What a bunch of crap {that was my secret feeling} There were so many new books Family weird stuff little books to read my head was spinning. A lot of movements have started with the truth and fallen astray.The family seems to me has become a difficult way to searve the Lord. I was made to feel like as David put it in the letter as a weeker sister butI was strong about my personal convictions. NoNo for the fam right. I'm just now breaking free. thankyou everyone for your help.
sincerely
Kerry (Matt)