In Reply to: Re: Family Suicide posted by Will on May 29, 2008 at 01:33:55:
It really saddens me, having to read & grasp, what you shared...wanting to end one's life because of the suffering one had to endure in this life is really very tragic.I can't understand your friend's parents it's beyond me...
that's their view of sacrificing "all"...kind of let the dead bury the dead...when the members of TF are more dead.."deadlier"...than you would wish them to be & certainly they are in the illusion of being alive...
It took me years to get over a lot of that delusion and I have to emphasize, you are "unfortunately" here on the website of the Ex first generationers(FGA)...those who were born into it and suffered are often refered to for the lack of a better handle SGAs (second generation adults...although they joined via birth but not of their own free will)...I think there is a website under construction or existing, done by the SGAs, which commemorates the lost dead fellowpeers, those who committed suicide...maybe you would also get a bit more of an age- adequate
response on these website: movingon.org, done by the SGAs or xfamily.org ....nonetheless I think it was supertouching, that you shared that here...
If the SGAs haven't been aware yet of that suicide, then they would really appreciate it, if you shared that there (you can copy/paste it, your article here), I think there is also a special space (on movingon.org) to look there for reports of suicides of loved ones, if it is difficult to find it, I would assist to find it or someone else.
I am very sorry, that you had such bad childhood and hope you can somehow cope & even recover.Good, that you have found a loving wife...hang on to that.
Although I was never a sexual abuser myself in that horrible outfit, I am sad, that I supported for too long the group with time, energy & the tithe...my big bad.Wish you all the best for life's rest...