In Reply to: Re: "Shiner" ? posted by Becky on February 20, 2009 at 04:33:20:
Becky:
Hi.
Yeah--real cute; especially here on the "spiritual" board.
Actually, I never had any problems with virility; either in technique, times per session; or whaver other consideration. Thanks for your kind interest. That's not your best flirting technique; is it? Gracious--I hope not--been out long? ;-)
I left TF before the rampant sex ('74), but at a later period in my life, I engaged in so much sex sin I truly lost count, and regret it all.
I have had a problem picking really crappy wives; twice--one in the cult and one out. I have only been unmarried for about 5 years since '74
That's two 13-year marriages, where I gave my heart completely and unreservedly, and got little or nothing back; except for the now adult children I love dearly, who are, ironically, just coming out of the brand of brainwashing my first ex laid on them about me.
She went "self-pity-atheist" post-TF ("Why me?", "Why now?" & "If You're so powerful, why did so-and-so happen, especially to ME?"), and influenced my only son that way as well.
I have also had a problem with former "friends", usually "church folks" who automatically assume wrongly that the man in the mariage is automatically the ONLY one at fault. I beg to differ, in my case; that's all. It usually turns into a "pearls before swine" case, though.
I also trusted my first inlaws (disastrous--cost me not becoming an elecrician and having a real trade all these years--long story), my Dad (now patched up--he's 82!), and my second ex (wanted me to quit work, return to school and become a {Physician's Assistant), and make her a lot of money BESIDES providing the loveless "stud service--love unrequited by HER) at the wrong time in my life, and it really cost me.
THAT has all been, at long last, a kind of "Forgive them, Father, for they know not what they do". People, I have learned, aren't usually THAT intentionally mean toward YOU; they're just completely self-centered--like David Berg's life, writ large; if you will.
Are YOU a "dumper"? You don't hate men yourself, because of TF abuse; do you? My prayers are with you; if so. The unqualified brevity of your question suggests a lot of things--insensitivity, at first blush.
Or, do you blush?
OT2
PS. Do you also enjoy picking on Bipolar people? That would be me; if you erad my other posts.
Interesting--sounds like you need to process some rage and forgiveness--otherwise you might remain as blase and superficial as you currently seem.