In Reply to: Re: kid yourself if you will posted by reader on February 25, 2009 at 07:23:17:
"Reader":
Your message, here, posted on Journeys as written to Becky, electronically tripped my email notice as written to ME; since you CC'd to ME.
Therefore, I will respond as if you posted here on Journeys to ME; OK?
I have done everything you said, in the past, was banned for a while, apologized profusely, hit some personal problems, attempted suicide, and came back, contrite, for some fellowship and new friendships.
My humor can be a little weird; but I really don't take myself that seriously anymore. I actually pray for a shorter life than I anticipate at this point, but I AM trying to be a better sport about it than I was before.
I have a "Rain Man" IQ--real high--it makes my sense of abject failure in two marriages all the more acute. I'm just wired that way. Non-entropic data don't exist, and dishonest philosophy makes me cry "Foul!". And, just like everybody here, bad religion REALLY puts me in a tizzy, while I struggle to remember that the battle's not againsts flesh and blood; anybody's. So, yes, I can over-react to BS, when peopl pretend to be the authority behind the BS "intruding into those things which they have not seen...vainly puffed up...", etc.
There was a guy I had a few conflicts with on NDN (Hi, ray!) who also couldn't bother to use the "Shift" key and use capitalization, like everybody else--he had his own reasons. You're not him, are you?
Or, did you just start the annoying habit? Or, did you break your "Shift" key? :-) Since I teach Elementary School, you can figure out how "erudite and scholarly" that seems to me :-)---not very!
I warn myself (and others) against taking one's own peculiarities and exalting them for some unknown reason, rather than using simple civilities for common communication; if anyone asks how to communicate in any of the three languages I speak, read and write. It makes things simpler, and one avoids looking silly or ignorant.
Are you naturally English-speaking? Perhaps that has partially caused our miscommunication? Syntax for your phrase "...so i never hardly post..." is a lttle odd. I won't bother to research your posts to disprove what I have already observed to be untrue (or at least that's my curent impression--could be wrong!), but I cannot believe you never write about yourself!
If so, why not? We could all use a little understanding and acceptance, and this board is called "Journeys"; after all. The name would necessitate self-disclosure, at some point. Why post on Journeys, if not to recount your own journey.
Otherwise, why would you post here, unless you felt you were supposed to try and direct everybody else's life, or their understanding, from a mistaken sense of your own superiority?
That' not exactly a trait of humility; is it?
Please remember the rules. Past a certain point, conversations need to leave behind the personal insults; n'est pas?
I am not trying to be hateful or mean, here; I just really want to try to understand you, and I can't; yet.
If you physically came to my door, and knocked, and then waited till I came to the door, and then made a call to Becky, where I could only hear your side, THAT would be the equivalent of CC'ing your post to my email.
In real life a stunt like that could get you in a lot of trouble; Bubba. You'd have to face personally the object of the insult; know what I mean?
Bad idea.
If you perceive [me] to be "...rude and full of himself and reacting with overkill...", perhaps you should examine yourself, and your own truthfulness TO yourself?
Here's to ALL of us continuing to becoming more and more stable (2 Peter 2: false teachers beguiling "unstable souls"). My doing that requires continuing to acknowledge mental illness (Bipolar Disorder Type II), daily psychotropic meds, therapy, fellowship, family, friends, etc., I need all the help I can get!
You are probably much stronger, and in a position of justifiable mockery of others; no?
As to being full of myself, I may be, at times. I do apologize. PTSD from a cult, even decades ago, can still be very disabling; it certainly has been for me. Two unfaithful wives, and two sets of inlaws literally trying to destroy me, over 26 years, wasn't MUCH better than being in the cult! But, I WAS out; all that time, and I will NEVER regret THAT!!!
And, I DO try to help out on the boards, here, as clumsy as I might be in the process. Before TF, I came out of Yoga and psychic stuff, and was totally demonized--before that, I had turned down the Gospel a couple dozen times in High School and the first two years of University.
Guess what was left? College-weekend-hippie-Hindu-wannabe DEMONIC stuff; that's what. I was as unstable a soul as I could be.
Raeder please don't set me up as one of your "ghosts": though. Project somewhere else; OK? I won't feel a thing. It will only harm and disturb you, Reader. Lighten up; OK?
I am a proud Texan (and here in Houston, it's Rodeo Week!). We import our toilet paper! Why, you ask? 'Cause we don't take crap offa NOBODY?!
Take it easy, Reader. And next time, Cowboy, be a man, and take up the personal insults with the object of your insults. Quitcher runnin' to tha wimmin'! :-) Don't CC your posts to Becky to me any more; please :-)
Email me yourself; I don't mind. Hiding behind thte woman is just kinda frowned upon; here in Texas.
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