In Reply to: Re: ...one more opportunity!? posted by OT2 on February 26, 2009 at 11:30:17:
OT2, I almost wanted to email you privately, asking you whether you've recuperated as much as possible from much or all you described as having "survived"...I had gathered from all that you wrote, that the stress has been hard on body & soul & then somewhere the healing/overcoming sets in, has it's way...but since you so openly wrote about it, I just decided now to ask it "publicly"...how you're doing...whether you also got enough help & support etc??...through
Community...friends...relatives
I can be quite thickheaded & literally bumped myself plenty.Also once I went "asleep" early in the morning on the highway/autobahn & flipped over with my car 2 or 3? times.Expansive rollercoasterexperience...I got out though uninjured, Thank God for His mercy..just my ellbow hurt...it was...strange thing...11th Sept. 2001...I'll never forget that, I bet.I think God wanted to stop me...as I was literally trying to run after the "right" woman.
I am not so mellow in the Spirit, that I always listen immediately...May be it was also a counter-reaction to all this direct channel/prophecy stuff, which didn't work in TF or elsewhere...so I often just went out & "did things"...unless I was deeply convinced they were wrong, I did them...& for me "love" couldn't be wrong yet at that stage.
I did look in the Word for guidance though, but many things were still very puzzling & needed to be sorted out...& in the meantime, some things "couldn't wait"...I often thought.
Sad, that the opinion of your direct relatives is so low...if you could have done better, then in your heart you'll know & they know...then apologizing is always the best way...if the judgement is totally harsh & cruel, then you can still pray for them & also that you endure this unkindness through His love & care...it's tough though, I believe.
The reason I started this hypomeno-stuff is/was, I happened just more recently, the last weeks & months or so, to have snapped out of this blaming God-business...I am not His spoiled good child, who can in heart wish/demand, that things turn out much nicer as they are & in fact God endured all this time the monstrosities of men...I would venture to say, that it's tough for God to see His children suffer either through their own stupidities ( dumb sheep ; ) ) or by fault of others & their blindness & the instignation through the enemy of the soul.He did prove, that He's willing to pay/help super big...unspeakably..by offering up His dear Son into the hands of people...who by the way - as you know - knew the predictions, better than me...at least in it's original language & script...they still want the messiah to ring in & bring immediately the kingdom on earth with all it's glories...well, they missed it...at the second appearance, yes...not at the first one.
A bit strange, that all these Torah-experts can't make it square, and we, out of the heathens, have to tell them...well, Paul says, in the meantime it serves to get the Gospel to the heathen nations...so I figure they still have some spiritual sleeping period/time...but as Paul, I'd rather have them awake.
Good, that you're awake though...do you fellowship anywhere particularly??Feeling drawn to something in particular?
One thing I find hard to take with atheists is this know it all-attitude...been there...no thanks I am the master of my own fate & thanks I live in this nice singularity...or not so nice, depending on the circumstances...& yet there's that will/drive to make it better for themselves...even for others...how could I not admit/say, that atheists have plenty of virtues..from what I've observed...yet that just serves them as "their proof"...we're just fine without anybody out there...right, so long...
Last year I was on a website, where they claimed, that there has been a "fight" for supremacey between masonic lodges...kind of the "theistic" anglosaxon branch & the atheistic French one...if I recall that right...I wonder how openly the AC will adress the power publicly behind him...or whether it looks like more like a superman-business...void of anything transcendental...claiming to be g-d...vast field...not my subject/interest at the moment...
Wish you strength & health...I pray for you.