I have one friend still in the fam who comes by everyother year or so. I was with him in 89-91 on my 23 acre refuge type house when I rejoined the F for a short while.
I've gotten over everything ( still thought it was the way after IRF'ERS BEWARE go figure how could I have been so blind.( maby lonley and need for fellowship?) All these years later I only have the word no church but a hunger for God's truth. My friend sent me an e mail telling me how I, in reality didn't thithe when my wife was murdered. It just caught me by supprise. To get that stuck to me after 29 years.
I know I love Jesus and he didn't destroy me over not giving a full 10% but I just never really fit in for my life out of the Fam I raised children still have a 16 yr old but my family trip is secret for the most. I'm still observing life and haven't been able to really relate to those around me. People like me and I have lots of surface friends It must be part of the things that happen . Everyone on chat boards over the years seem so well adjusted I must be a slow learner. Any way hi all