In Reply to: Re: Clergy example posted by OT2 on February 10, 2010 at 15:14:16:
Thanks dear brother for your words of counsel and concern...regarding relationships/marriage...well, I am very adamant about it for myself...believing to have what the right counsel should be and everybody else needs to give his own account to the Lord one of these days...the judgement seat of Christ, which seems solely to be a matter of rewards.I am happy for just being invited, part of it...I know many shine so incredibly more and I guess I can bask at least in their joy. & profiting then from their experience.
When I sought deeply the counsel about remarriage, I thought I had pretty much made "my catch"...a young ,fair over 6 foot tall German Christian woman (then I rather had more "experiences"...for whatever reason with foreigners) and her sweet darkskinned kids.
She lived in divorce from her unfaithful husband and I more than pitied her situation from which she had fled also to protect her children.It kind of seemed perfect...her having faith, her height, hair and eyecolour...I kind of thought "being may be finally rewarded".
There was also an incident, which caused me to reflect about it's significance for me: 9/11 2001...I had at night/early morning a split second sleep and an overturning on the sidebanks of the highway...I felt like in a roller-coaster and thank God, I remained unharmed.
I came back then from a rendezvous with another tall/great divorcee...though an unbeliever and I sensed, that might be altogether too difficult.What I am saying...I tried quite a few times post-TF...my resumee:
The women with some interest are/were predominantly divorced, who have some charm...the other ones are "difficult" ; ) if you know what I mean...there is one huge exception...I met a nice missionary nurse, who must be altogether serving in Africa for more than 10 years...she was never married and "kind of ideal"...because I wouldn't have broken into anyone else's before God existing marriage.
For myself I could theoretically maintain, to have never been legally married...with the Indian sister then in TF more than 20 years back it was a marriage in a Sikh-temple..nonvalid before the law, because I didn't convert to Sikhism and I thought we kind of were married TF-style (argument: Adam and Eve didn't have a certificate either or Isaac and Rebecca etc.)...so I could may be pull a Romans 13 in that regard...Overall remains the counsel of Paul, that the married man is also divided, having to please the woman...not that I don't like to oblige for someone I deeply love, but that's where my trouble stems from, I expected may be "too much" love out of such relationship...kind of the "dreamfactor".I am happy for anyone who has found it...and sometimes it's hard to do everything on your own, plus guiding your kids to some extent (besides some upbringing).
Most of all I wish them to profit of my mistakes in handling love & marriage...the relationship with the mother of my 3 is kind of null & void anyway, because she was divorced and I don't think her divorce in TF is really waterproof in the eyes of the Lord...
Regarding my favourite parable of the sower and the seeds (e.g. Mt 13)...it's intriguing that the weeds are the children of the devil and I don't think I ever heard anyone say, that out of weeds became "wheat"...I know, that some Ex-Satanists became Christians...I know personally one...so that is not my point...It seems to me, there is some choosing, which is way beyond us and rather on the spiritual plane...nevertheless I think you have to repent...hearing the Word...one must "feel" like a sinner failing God...the law...His perfection...all have sinned.
For now I settled for the picture of a funnel or "birthchannel"...it goes gravitationwise downward...irresistable...but within the funnel/birthchannel there is way of turning, changing sides...the direction is determined, with some "space in between"...otherwise there'd be no free will at all...(which quite a few scientists, besides sceptics question)...and it seems there is some "particle-filter" at the end of the funnel...my take for now.GBY brother.