In Reply to: Why this is difficult for me posted by Donny on August 07, 2003 at 21:27:11:
i can appreciate the question. it is one i continue to ponder. i never said the fam was a "christian environment" or that memorizing scripture and world travel outweighed the suffering of so many of our kids. i also said i felt that the Lord had tried to lead me out along the way, and that missing that leading was my own fault, and required repentance. i'm not sure how my testifying to God's working in my life while in the fam someway makes you think i don't care about the plight of sg's.
the question of the suffering of the sg's is one i really don't have words for. if i did, due to the facts of my life, having been in one day past dito, pretty much disqualifies me from speaking. the only words that i can find is to say i'm sorry. i don't blame anyone if they reject that. i support their struggle in the ways i am capable. i do believe that there is an answer to each and every hurt. but i have no idea how that answer will appear.
but i fail to see how trying to carry on in faith and life and veiw my personal past with a mixture of gratitude and regret, and realizing that to one extent or another that is the fate of the children of men on planet earth, in anyway lessens my compassion for the sg's. it seems to me that maintaining a heart of love for those still in, and attempting to identify w/ their mindset, having been there myself, is the right thing to do for me. i don't think this precludes relating in a loving compassionate way to others. it does not strike me as an either/or situation.
maybe every post needs to include a personal renunciation of fam doctrine and leadership b4 one says anything else? i don't know. i've stated my position many times in the strongest terms i think i have the right to use. what else can i do?