In Reply to: Why I'm not a Christian anymore posted by juni on September 09, 2003 at 02:58:55:
I can understand why. I came very close myself, it was absolutely shattering to find out that your whole hearted service was nothing but a sham.
I think I felt like Mary looking for her Lord saying "Because they have taken away my Lord, and I know not where they have laid him."
It's been quite a journey trying to find the real Christ. I ended up joining a very traditional church (Lutheran) because it came the closet to what I believe that the Bible says.
But it wasn't easy, I was so mad, mainly at God (not even at berg) I thought that I had loved him so much and here he let me become a prostitute!
It was all pretty hard to accept. I just about drove myself crazy at first, but then just backed off and took it easy.
Just slowly reading my Bible till I started to understand the difference of reading it myself without the influence of the letters and reading them under bergs' influence.
It's a big difference.
I found a Lord that didn't want my stupid sexual sacrifices, that wanted me to stay with my husband, and children, that cared about me personally. That taking up my cross and following Him had nothing to do with standing in the street passing out lit.
I think as you search out so many different and interesting things, there is always the chance that your interest in the real Christ might be provoked. Just know Jesus is nothing at all like Berg portrayed him. (did you know Maria had him dancing around loin cloths for her? Jesus that is)
Thanks for taking the time to share your story, hope you don't mind me sharing mine.