Do you make New Year's resolutions/goals/targets? I do coz it's very gratifying when I achieve them. At the beginning of 2003 I set "Me first." as my motto after 44 years of "Me last." (hangover from my culture, my Catholic upbringing as exacerbated by TF). And today, the last day of 2003, I am proud to report that I have accomplished just that. It wasn't easy. Uncovering maladaptive behavior patterns, admitting and dispelling my illusions, shifting long-held paradigms, ending dead-end relationships, realizing unconscious beliefs about myself, honoring my feelings, establishing my self-worth.... darn hard work and very painful. Nurturing my damaged instincts back to health will be a life-long process, but one that I look forward to with eager anticipation. This year was a turning point for me; I became more self-aware and self-accepting, enabling myself to make conscious choices, to live more consciously and responsibly. I discovered the immense power I have over myself, my influence on others and how I can direct my circumstances according to my intentions. And most of all, I have renewed my relationship with my God. I am finally beginning to feel that my soul is aligning with the divine. Now, I love being me and I have fallen in love with Life.
For this New Year, I choose to let go of past hurts and false hopes. The life that I have come to revere is too short for that. 2004, I know, will be an exciting one. My motto for the coming year will continue to be “Me first” to continue on with my journey and trust that everything else around me, my family, my friends, my career, my environment, will support me in my quest towards wholeness. A Blessed New Year to all.