In Reply to: Prayer posted by Seldom pray on November 03, 2002 at 14:29:46:
I did not really pray for about 3 to 4 years. Somehow I was really angry. And sometimes I am really struggling to find an ancor where to hang my faith on. Like I used to pray: Lord , I gave my life for you and now you have to help me. Like really believing I was God's servant and therefore he has to anwser me. I did get some results then which blew my own mind and which I won't get into here. But now knowing that what I believed was so off....I find it harder. I have to start from scratch. A turning point came, when Kathy Johnson drove all the way from her town to see me and my son in the army when I visited from Europe this year...and it was quite a hard situation with my son )I then figured: there must be a God - and her love and prayers (and not preaching, though she left me some great books, like 'the power of a praying parent' by a lady named Stormie) convinced me that I could again have faith. She left the Family much earlier ( I only left India in 1998 and officially left in March 1999) - so I think that some things do just take time to work through. And sometimes looking back at how the Lord helped us to leave and how all things are slowly working out in our new lives is comforting. Things could have been worse. Other people in the world are going thru hell not being in a cult but just being born in an Asian country for example. ( I lived in Asia over 20 years and saw it daily) Anyway , all this to say that I think this board is great- thank you!