In Reply to: well, ot2.. posted by ray on June 16, 2004 at 13:51:19:
I just discovered that I can get back on the site. I guess Jules relented; bless her heart.
I think the SGAs are doing the best they can to sort their lives out. I believe that they are probably the most effective "weapon" in helping their peers in TF to read their posts on MovingOn, and to come to themselves, like the Prodigal Son, etc., and to begin their TF exodus.
And, their post-abuse anger is completely understandable, especially where their early childhood sexual innocence, and emerging personality has been stolen from them, and where theri ability to trust has been crippled.
They actually have been raped, tortured, and subjugated to the false authority of some pretty horrible people who were and are false Christians, and all in the name of a false Jesus, a false prophet, false "Apostles" or high-up leadership, etc.
Their pent-up rage is completely justifiable, IMO. But you cannot stay in that psychological condition, and remain sane.
The professional literature, and I have read it, as someone previously involved in the mental health profession, does make that clear.
But it also makes clear something I experienced a while back; it is much better to be temporarily "stuck" at a point where one is projecting anger or even a reflexive rage outwardly, than to be stuck at the point of induced self-loathing and self-anger, resulting in sucidal ideation and suicide planning, a place I occupied for at least a five-year period.
But it is of course not the end goal. The only thing I've found that really releases the poison from one's system is good old Christian forgiveness.
That took me a very long time, too; I cannot even imagine the difficulty SGAs must experience; it really breaks my heart.
I only wish SGAs the very best in their lives. I just stumbled into a conversation on the MovingOn site where I made an ass of myself, and should have known better.
The SGAs kind of have their own subculture; if you will, and it is understandable that they do behave somewhat reflexively towards FGAs like myself.
I took a typing course, once, but it didn't take too long to degenerate back to hunting and pecking (with seven good fingers)!