After coming back to the Fam in 89 thats a lot of missing years 1980-98 out I had so much babes reading to catch up on. First we were on the outside and then we got visited and became DO. I was so trained to acheive and be strong I couldn't even see my true feelings. {No 1} I didn't like to read the new little books about Berg tearing to pieces and destroying other people so I put those books on the back shelf. It reminded me of IRFER'S BEWARE {No 2} I had a secret strong conviction and would choose my Family and friends over direct orders from the top. A secret dirty disease and weekness. the Boy who wouldn't I htought how cruel Opps theres another weak feeling. I kept being a hard working brother but I new I had a problem I wanted to be out away from the compleate obediance. I can't believe I'm just now being able to express these feelings. Thanks each and every one who has tolorated and encouraged me through this trying time. I feel like I'm being born again.
Love
Matt