In Reply to: Re: I have a "special channel.." posted by Miguel on November 04, 2004 at 09:38:42:
I have and I will, probably, some day........
It's like my art. I'm always telling Fran that today is the day I'm going to work on my art career - ha ha ha. She just giggles. I've been saying that, like, for the past ten years, I think. I really could go places with it but it would take some serious effort to get it rolling and I haven't had the time to do that just yet.
First of all, I had to learn to paint and that has taken alot of time. I've pretty much got that in the bag now, though. While learning, I had to recover from coming out of the Cog - that took ten years, most of it in serious depression. Keep in mind, too, that I had a wife and 6 kids that were VERY dependent on me. I did what I could to keep the wolf away from the door while going through my emotional hell, and all the while fixing up a beater of a house at the same time but, really, I was disengaged. EVERYTHING was way too much, too fast. Fran was stuck in the grief of her own past, too, and hadn't found any resolution, so you can imagine how the kids felt having two disengaged parents. They pretty much had to learn to fend for themselves in lots of ways and spun off into all kinds of acting out behavior which only added to the mess - the siren song (for me) to rejoin the Fam, if but to ease the pain, playing softly in the background. I finally did find resolution, as you know, and that spawned a tremendous healing in Fran. We have since been able to pick up the pieces from all that wreckage and build out.
My art career? Hmmn! Who knows? I have a half dozen painings on order, but I'm so busy working at other more immediately profitable endeavors that, again, the art gets pushed aside. Winter's almost here and I usually try to do my art then, but then again, there's that damn house to fix, and more importantly, it's vactaion time -- hee hee. I could take my art with me, but that would be work, and hey, I don't need anymore of that right now. I much prefer to drop a line in a lake, glass a few birds, walk a few trails, and sleep a few zees..
Writing? For now, I'm content just to yak with you guys.
Got any gifts of your own?