In Reply to: S.D. posted by With Held on November 18, 2004 at 15:07:19:
Sure, perspective plays a role and those differ from person to person, but I can honestly say that the Sara, then known as Prisca that I knew was not sadistic or mean. I seem to remember when she was led to the Family if I am not mistaken, I was there when she was witnessed to by someone using the "say not ye there are yet four months" quote to her and she had about four months more to go to graduate? Many FG youth were girls interrupted. Also prior to Davidito I knew her in Spain and at that time she was much more hard edged and I remember her exhortation once that anything Berg said as a suggestion in writing was AN ORDER. Yes I agree that at that time pre-Davidito she was very "sold out" top leadership. It is my understanding that as a child she was molested and the in the group she was MO-lested. And she became a molester. How horrible. For the children first and foremost. For herself as well because if she ever comes to terms with her past and the things she participated in within the family and how heavily she was into it (which is why I say I totally believe the stories told by SGs about her) the death sentence would probably be preferable. I also know, firsthand for myself that abuse in childhood affects different people differently. Mine affected me by causing me to be more distant, to avoid hugs and affection until it was forced or coerced and then to have great panic attacks at those times. I would never have been able to touch a child in a sexual way ever, probably because I would have snapped if under that kind of coercion. I lost it when I saw suggestive stuff happening done in a humorous way (not truly humorous at all but tragic) where a man in the family was groping a pre-teen girl that was screaming and crying and I lost it on him. He quit at that instance but I was told I was out of it. I remember taking scissors and cutting my hair off short. When I watched "Nuts" with Babs Streisand yrs later, I understood why.
I got out during the RNR before the screws tightened and sharing schedules became the norm. I am glad that i did. I am afraid my boys would have become suicides being sensitive and "rebellious"-iow, normal- at that time. Glad we got out when they were young.
Sometimes I wish we could meet and sit around a table and discuss this over a cup of Joe. But that is not realistic. This written only platform is just not adequate enough at times to relay perspectives and viewpoints.