Man it's quiet here. I guess that's a good thing.
I just wanted to say a few things. Firstly, I've really been going through alot over the last weeks. I wonder about how sharing my thoughts and letters must seem. I'm extreamly greatful to have the opertunity to express my fears and thoughts here. Or rather have kind words and encouragement. ( I'm so bad at spelling plese forgive me )
I have found the letter I need to send I think. Once I've sent it I'll share it.
It has changed very much. I realized there was little point in being angry or being negative about my friend's Church in any way, despite what I might think of it.
So I wrote a letter that was I hope more about love than anything else. I don't mean it was about my declaring love, rather it was a letter that came from a perspective of love, if that makes sense ?
I am so greatful for the advice I have received here. From everyone. And when I send the letter, I'll post it here. It's been very difficult, but I beleive the best things in life are difficult to get to.
My only concern now, and it is unlikely but still possible. I may raise doubts in this woman about the Church of Christ, It may on a 10000000 / 1 chance that she'd turn to me over the doubts I have raised in her mind or heart.
What an earth do I do then ??? If she turns up on my doorstep and I tell her she needs to cut herself from all her friends, everything she's believed in for the last four years, what do I do ?
Contact an exit councellor ? Throw her cell phone in the bin, go to her flat where her Church members live and remove all her belongings ?
I really need advice, from experience on this one.
Many thanks.
Greg