"I believe that all of you that were so misused in the Family have many reasons to feel such hatred. It is the worst, to have been sexually abused. Today I believe that David Berg deviated from the way of God. Rigt from when he first started going after other women. He broke the rules clearly stated in the Bible against adultery with his "Law of Love", and in his depravity, he used us, people that believed and trusted in him. Just as he misused our trust, he also misued others sexually and he misused God's word in the Bible as well.
I do not hate him for this. I see him as a man that became totally destructive and led by his lusts, just as Maria is led by hers and pursues more sexual deviancy. I think she is deep into occultic practice that the Bible forbids when she says that today she channels Berg. I think she is blinded in her errant ways and spiritually bankrupt.
When I first came to the Ex-Family board and said that I loved the Mo letters, now I see how provocative that was, and how very hurtful that came across to most of you. Please forgive me. When I said "I love the Family", to me, this means the individuals, because I can see how they are misused by following the lies and errant ways of their leader. I don't know what else to say. I believe that at one time the family was following Jesus and there was no one we loved more than Jesus. But David Berg,Mo, perverted everything to do with the Bible, real faith, and real love.
I understand when someone says that they can't believe in God anymore and throws it all away, including the bible. Anyone who was so wounded and deceived, had their faith destroyed as a result of so much sexual abuse, spiritual abuse and bodily harm: I can understand that they are at a point where they have lost their faith, are unable to love and maybe can't even stand to hear the word "love" anymore.
Goth, can you help me to transltate this? I want to converse at the ex-fam. board again, but I am having a hard time trying to get across what it is that I want to say there without coming across as offensive. I do not want to offend anyonte that was so wounded in the Family.
I know how hard it is to live with a wounded, deeply wounded soul. I have experienced this too. But I have also experienced God's healing. Now I can trust again, really love, and I can empathize with those who are hurting. I don't beleive that you are an atheist. On the contrary. I believe that you will find God again. A God that will heal your wounds, heal our wounds. We have all sinned, whether currently in the Family or not. We have all been misused. We all had our trust broken.
In this way, the difference between ex-members and current members seem apparent: One group is still following an errant, sick path; the other group is living as deeply wounded souls, some unable to find any real healing.
Consequently, I have started to pray for those in the family and will continue to do so. When I said at the ex fam. board that I loved Mo letters, I was talking about the letters from the first few years that David Berg wrote that were influenced from the Bible, not the later ones that started with FFing and all those letters that were so destructive.
I got saved in the family, and the Bible, after 20 years, is still my foundation for life. For me, there is nothing better. I can remember later when Berg said "read the letters first, then the Bible" and that was the first red flag for me that he was away from God and into a manipulative and abusive path of lies.
This is how I see it and it hurts my heart. Now I see the wrong in the Family and the wrongs that I did, this wrong and that wrong, while in the Family. Now I know what I believe I must do. No one currently in the Family is going to come up to us, when they are so abused and oppressed, and say to us that they are sorry.
I am waiting and expecting a big change in the Family soon. I am waiting for the leaders to flee that have sexually abused the children. I am waiting for Maria to repent and be brought to her knees before God. That is what I would like to see.
This is what I mena when I say I am a member of the family, not by belonging to that group on paper, but by relating to those abused. Maybe you think this is crazy... but the hour is late. I will write more later.