In Reply to: Re: alrightee posted by Mr. Don on October 14, 2006 at 17:42:06:
i hesitated to post this because it is personal. but i made up my mind now so here i go again, sorry coordinators.
i don't know if it's irreparable, we'll know when i check out of this life. the damage was caused by abuse, time in the family, things i was made to believe and do, things i've seen people do and say in the name of god after the family. i question everything. i see how horrible i can be as a human being myself. i have trouble accepting the role of the church or religion, or priesthood or pastors or shepherds. i walk in a beautiful church and wonder why people regard the place as holy and think god is more in the bricks and rocks than in a sparrow or in the meadow by the lake. i attend a beautiful wedding and wonder why we think a man wearing white robes gets to speak on behalf of god and say the marriage of two people who love each other is approved. whatever faith i have is strong but deep inside me and its getting increasingly difficult to relate it to anyone i doon't believe anybody has all the answers about anything. there is just so much we don't know, and i'm happy to find out. i like the idea of journeys and arrivals.