Posted by Farmer on August 23, 2010 at 12:12:50
Dear workerbee...wonderful to have you here...and so sorry to hear about your troubles...I shall pray for you...I am glad you have an understanding husband...that is really super important too in overcoming the dreadful past...
I have a workmate who's an enthusiast of a beekeeper and if I owned some house and land..may be I would try it myself ; )...fantastic insects
However...in all our working...we should also stop and /pause and getting strenthened by HIM...for that alone is the real strength...my faith in that regard.
Anyway...I post here already since some 7 years or so...so I have said a lot of things...which I am glad to repeat to you...although now in a nutshell...because I have very limited time for the next 3 weeks or so
But I am so happy...that you have some trust to ask here...which I don't take for granted...given the fact...that you SGAs suffered so much because of the weird upbringing we FGAs put you through
I am almost 55 and left about 20 years ago...I am meanwhile (since 15 years) separated (though never having been married)...and my kids have now reached adulthood...only my son spent for a few months time in a Combo...then we left 1989 for good...3 years later we stopped tithing
I never lost my faith in Christ...I was searching for the truth in my teenageyears...got into esoterical stuff...asian religions etc...and if I hadn't met TF...I guess I would have wound up in India in some ashram or so...I believed in dedication...drugs didn't interest me...I thought, that was a lazy way out
One of the main things which thrill me about Jesus is this: if I am weary...heaven laden...and can't go on anymore...because things are so difficult in this world ...the personal one mostly...then I get into prayer...addressing it to Jesus and the father and get relieved immediately!!!This is His promise fulfilled...what better "psychologist" could I have....what better therapist...it works for me now for 35 years...that's why I love Jesus also...although I have my battles...also understanding His very complex ways with us...His thoughts are so way above...it's mindboggling....sometimes I feel like collapsing under the magnitude of things...but then prayer releases me
To have that, one has to have faith in the atoning sacrifice of Christ...for the sins of the whole world...Germans sinned greatly towards the Jews as you know for sure...the inquisition was outrageous....TF sinned greatly as you personally know...these are some of the very many sins...which all in all can be forgiven and have been paid for...but people need also to confess and to repent...that's really missing with TF nowadays...
Nonetheless...I venture to say...that even the SGAs aren't perfect either...they need Jesus...God...forgiveness...and that's where it becomes very personal then...
My son wanted to be baptised (water) out of own desire with fifteen years of age...I thought...even if the parents believe...the children should voice their own will for that...not easy for parents to trust the Lord in that matter...because you want your family to be save and sound in the Lord's hands.
But if we worry and care for every thing ourselves...it won't never be enough...you can't be up all the time...and even then you can't prevent everything...it's just too much...that's where faith and trust comes in
The Bible does say to come together with those of same faith...in Jesus...
TF totally misinterpreted a lot of verses and scripture....the outcome is terrible...though there is some tiny fraction which seems to be overall ok...which also interested the lost sheep they witness to...those like me searching for the truth
I'd say...it's about the best...to throw everything of TF first out and start all over again with the search for "sane Christianity"...that's what I did after TF
I shunned then everything which was too "loud" (the still small voice...is the right one)...too glaring...daring...boasting...mainly the charismatics are like that...all came under scrutiny
I stopped "praying in tongues"...that TFI-stuff...after I got big doubts...having that gift at all...when no interpretation follows...then I realised...it was also a sign for the Jews then etc. etc.. big subjects...just to say: there is a "sane"/sound faith out there...probably in your neighborhood (congregation-wise)...and yes, I did tell many about the weird group I was in...it was deliberating...worse for me to confess that...because I was the stupid FGA...for you it should be a bit "better"...cause none of your fault...right???
Those supposed sacrifices a TFer is supposed to make are total nonsense...that is the result of not rightly dividing the word of God
A disability TF should be made famous for...those "non-nut-crackers" just don't know what at least a Darbyist...those of the brethren-movement learn right from the start...that you have to see/understand...to whom the words of Jesus or Paul are addressed...since I am a late Gentile believer...the words of Paul...the letters in general are the ultimate yardstick for me/us...adultery...fornication and all the rest are heavily spoken against in those letters...therewith wife-swapping...sharing sex outside marriage...sex with children etc or even
incest is a mind/heart-pollution...begging for money is out...those who work not with their own hands shall not eat etc....tithing is voluntarily...not mandatory in NT-times...the hierarchy à la catholic..lutheran church etc...including TF is really also NT-nonsense...they all basically know, that there is the general priesthood of all the believers...even though you can have locally some elders...emphasis on locally
Discipleship in the sternest sense was more for the very first ones... so a lot of that stuff is directed very much to the very first ones...to think, that you can copy 100% the early discipleship plus some more ...that is the grandeur of TF and others...just reading Ephesians 2:20 freed me of that one...and cured me...that was/is the foundation...those days are gone...we're 2000 years after that...or "God's time"...2 days after that...so we're really in the last days...no objection to that TF-take...though I won't go for now into details where I would differ etc..
Also TF's anti Israel take is total crap...about time they repent of that one too
Have some duties to take care of...but post more as you like and have questions etc...sorry got to go
Here's some song along the line:
Shreya Kant - Fear Thou Not