Posted by Skep on February 06, 2012 at 00:47:40
In Reply to: Re: Why I wrote what I did posted by I Feel Terrible on February 05, 2012 at 08:27:28:
Because of my job I get to interact with some people who are considerable younger than me. I have to confess that I find it difficult some times. I haven't figured it out but the age distance seems to be the problem. It seems to me that you are considerable younger than most of the posters in this board.
In your only answer to me you obliterated me and any interest I had to try to even talk to you stopped right then. After your several admissions and outbursts I feel like there is no way I could ever reach you. My wisdom or rather lack of wisdom would be a big problem. So I am not trying to do that at all. This is more for others who will read, but I also want to thank you.
I think in general we are all sorry for what you are going through because of some form of generalized guilt. Those who are more advanced in their cleansing from the cult probable have less dosage of that guilt.
And this is why I want to thank you. I thought I was already at the end of this very long trip of what I called "cleansing" above. You showed me I am not, and I thank you for that.
You see... ? I have been exposing myself one way or another through these boards during these last years, I learned about my own journey and the journeys of others. The main point was that these journeys are different even though we share many similarities. I have discovered that I may be better, a little bit better than before, but I am not out of the woods yet. Maybe I will be the day I go forever, and I can tell you that it will not be soon enough for me. But for me know this is a relief, and in an amazing contradiction ...it keeps me alive and going.
I hope you can find peace, at least some, and most of the time.