Posted by C-T Dummy on February 26, 2008 at 08:36:51
In Reply to: Re: Leaving religious groups - your experinces posted by Helena Dawn on February 23, 2008 at 13:02:41:
Leaving was a long process which began in mind before I left in body. My heart held on to the altruistic ideals I could identify with, and that saw me through the painful transition. Upon leaving, I embarked on a long unlearning process, realizing that the values I had internalized were chauvinistic, misogynic and plain idiocy. I had to sort out my issues re. abuse of children: not only from my indoctrination during in the group, but from my own abusive upbringing which muddied things for me for years. While having the responsibility of the wellbeing of my children, I also had to make something out of myself. It was like coming out of deep freeze, appearing out of nowhere with holes in your life, and the knowledge, education, skills and experience of a 17-yr-old. For a good long while I had no clue as to how things worked in the real world and committed many social blunders. I've charted the many milestones in my journey out from a self-deluding self-destructive guru-serving personality-based cult. You can ask me anything, but for now I prefer to answer on the boards if that's alright with you.