Dylan Farrow speaks up about her sexual abuser, Woody Allen


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Posted by Thinker on February 02, 2014 at 04:57:59

(A note from Nicholas Kristof: In 1993, accusations that Woody Allen had abused his adoptive daughter, Dylan Farrow, filled the headlines, part of a sensational story about the celebrity split between Allen and his girlfriend, Mia Farrow. This is a case that has been written about endlessly, but this is the first time that Dylan Farrow herself has written about it in public. Itís important to note that Woody Allen was never prosecuted in this case and has consistently denied wrongdoing; he deserves the presumption of innocence. So why publish an account of an old case on my blog? Partly because the Golden Globe lifetime achievement award to Allen ignited a debate about the propriety of the award. Partly because the root issue here isnít celebrity but sex abuse. And partly because countless people on all sides have written passionately about these events, but we havenít fully heard from the young woman who was at the heart of them. Iíve written a column about this, but itís time for the world to hear Dylanís story in her own words.)



Whatís your favorite Woody Allen movie? Before you answer, you should know: when I was seven years old, Woody Allen took me by the hand and led me into a dim, closet-like attic on the second floor of our house. He told me to lay on my stomach and play with my brotherís electric train set. Then he sexually assaulted me. He talked to me while he did it, whispering that I was a good girl, that this was our secret, promising that weíd go to Paris and Iíd be a star in his movies. I remember staring at that toy train, focusing on it as it traveled in its circle around the attic. To this day, I find it difficult to look at toy trains.

For as long as I could remember, my father had been doing things to me that I didnít like. I didnít like how often he would take me away from my mom, siblings and friends to be alone with him. I didnít like it when he would stick his thumb in my mouth. I didnít like it when I had to get in bed with him under the sheets when he was in his underwear. I didnít like it when he would place his head in my naked lap and breathe in and breathe out. I would hide under beds or lock myself in the bathroom to avoid these encounters, but he always found me. These things happened so often, so routinely, so skillfully hidden from a mother that would have protected me had she known, that I thought it was normal. I thought this was how fathers doted on their daughters. But what he did to me in the attic felt different. I couldnít keep the secret anymore.

When I asked my mother if her dad did to her what Woody Allen did to me, I honestly did not know the answer. I also didnít know the firestorm it would trigger. I didnít know that my father would use his sexual relationship with my sister to cover up the abuse he inflicted on me. I didnít know that he would accuse my mother of planting the abuse in my head and call her a liar for defending me. I didnít know that I would be made to recount my story over and over again, to doctor after doctor, pushed to see if Iíd admit I was lying as part of a legal battle I couldnít possibly understand. At one point, my mother sat me down and told me that I wouldnít be in trouble if I was lying Ė that I could take it all back. I couldnít. It was all true. But sexual abuse claims against the powerful stall more easily. There were experts willing to attack my credibility. There were doctors willing to gaslight an abused child.

After a custody hearing denied my father visitation rights, my mother declined to pursue criminal charges, despite findings of probable cause by the State of Connecticut Ė due to, in the words of the prosecutor, the fragility of the ďchild victim.Ē Woody Allen was never convicted of any crime. That he got away with what he did to me haunted me as I grew up. I was stricken with guilt that I had allowed him to be near other little girls. I was terrified of being touched by men. I developed an eating disorder. I began cutting myself. That torment was made worse by Hollywood. All but a precious few (my heroes) turned a blind eye. Most found it easier to accept the ambiguity, to say, ďwho can say what happened,Ē to pretend that nothing was wrong. Actors praised him at awards shows. Networks put him on TV. Critics put him in magazines. Each time I saw my abuserís face Ė on a poster, on a t-shirt, on television Ė I could only hide my panic until I found a place to be alone and fall apart.

Last week, Woody Allen was nominated for his latest Oscar. But this time, I refuse to fall apart. For so long, Woody Allenís acceptance silenced me. It felt like a personal rebuke, like the awards and accolades were a way to tell me to shut up and go away. But the survivors of sexual abuse who have reached out to me Ė to support me and to share their fears of coming forward, of being called a liar, of being told their memories arenít their memories Ė have given me a reason to not be silent, if only so others know that they donít have to be silent either.

Today, I consider myself lucky. I am happily married. I have the support of my amazing brothers and sisters. I have a mother who found within herself a well of fortitude that saved us from the chaos a predator brought into our home.

But others are still scared, vulnerable, and struggling for the courage to tell the truth. The message that Hollywood sends matters for them.

What if it had been your child, Cate Blanchett? Louis CK? Alec Baldwin? What if it had been you, Emma Stone? Or you, Scarlett Johansson? You knew me when I was a little girl, Diane Keaton. Have you forgotten me?

Woody Allen is a living testament to the way our society fails the survivors of sexual assault and abuse.

So imagine your seven-year-old daughter being led into an attic by Woody Allen. Imagine she spends a lifetime stricken with nausea at the mention of his name. Imagine a world that celebrates her [tormentor].

Are you imagining that? Now, whatís your favorite Woody Allen movie?





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