In Reply to: Re: I am way too damaged posted by Farmer on April 20, 2009 at 03:05:04:
Only I get to decide whether or not I'm still damaged!
Well, there are a lot of definitions for "damaged." By one definition, if I'm still bothered by stuff from the past, if I still have triggers like that I'm still suffering from PTS. But that wide-sweeping definition would do injustice to all serious ill people suffering from PTS. So I oughtta get real, I know. Kinda reminds me of this fad in the 90s, when people would get up on national TV and talk about their "addictions," like shopping addiction, as though that were somehow on par with crack addiction.
Listen, you don't have to tell me that a brochure about work on the field is just simply a brochure and not necessarily an attempt at fraudulent fund raising. But I am affected negatively because of my past. Some day I'll have to get over this and all the other minefields from my time in the cult.
Self-inflicted. I know.