In Reply to: I totally agree posted by Donny on November 12, 2002 at 10:25:13:
Yup it was damned if you do damned if you don't. Hell everything was under a microscope, every movement every word uttered overspiritualized. Noone was spared not even the "good" guys. You couldn't breathe without the shepherds finding fault in it!! An atmosphere of dread, fear, mistrust, suspicion. Very dark, but cleverly cast in artificial light. Classic nazi communist control devices. God I hated that gestapo-like concentration camp disguised as "heaven on earth" what blasphemy@#$%. I bet people had nervous breakdowns all the time without realizing it---just subjected to more exorcisms and more punishments. So much abuse. Very very sad really.
Regaining our freedom after breaking out is not real freedom without ourselves getting "exorcised" of all the demonic influence of the fam. It permeates every single aspect of our life and noone is strong enough to combat it on his own. I tried that for years but failed. Although my faith was still intact it was still badly tainted with the false doctrines of the past. I believe everyone of us exers need to get debriefed by a professional. Lacking that, reading up on cults is a good start (and discover the amazing similarities of all cults and our own "un-uniqueness"). It helps to become more aware of the spiritual holocaust that we've been thru. And if I could only find exers at my part of the world I would get group therapy too. This is the closest thing to group therapy I can get. So I am very grateful to those responsible for this board as posting has been very therapeutic for me. All that to say YES! I am free. Free to think for myself, free to do what I want, free to love whom I want, free to feel every emotion God gives me. I may not be totally free yet but am working darn hard at it. And despite all the pain I am grateful for this second chance at life.