In Reply to: "Highest Will" and accomplishment posted by Laura on September 22, 2003 at 04:06:51:
I'm still plagued with that feeling that if I'm not doing something that constitutes "for the Lord" then I'm wasiting my time. I battled with that for a long time while working at a secular job and I worked for an attorney too. I believe you, because my attorneys were honest and hard working. However, I always had that doubt in the back of mind that had been ingrained there. I still have to shake it off and even more now that I'm not working. I can never relax.
It's so true when I listen to current F. members talk, they are so smug because they are so convinced that even if they spend all day taking care of the babies, they are doing more than anybody else on the face of the earth and that's why they can convince themselves to ask for money at fund raisers for their great work, even if they themselves never do a thing but ask for money. Of course, there are the shows that take them months to prepare for and then they put them on at a couple of schools and orphanages and voila - photo shoot. They expect the world to give them everything they need and want because of those two or three shows. Heck, my son was in a production of Godspell and spent months preparing for it, but never received a dime as it was a community production. He still had to work and pay for his own way, plus go to college!!!! He could very easily go around to shopping centers and fund raisers with pictures and get people to put money in his bank account. This is when I start to get mad at TF and the way they lie to their own members and bilk the public and then teach their children to do the same. Oh, here I go again, I better calm down.