In Reply to: Re: Murmur???? posted by Kinda Gentler on July 18, 2004 at 13:12:52:
You always manage to diffuse my anger, haha!
What you say about "The way I feel about it is that IF there is a loving God of any sort, that loving God would understand where all the anger is coming from and even if you told that God "You don't exist to me, Fuck you, you were never there, I hate you", or the worst imaginable thing, that loving God would understand why you feel that way and would be just as angry about all the shit that happened in the name of "love" which after the family has become just another 4 letter word to so many. For sure "God" is not all-powerful because if so, that would make God a monster" is something I feel as well.
I think that if God is there and we have Eternity after this life, then God has time to win me back. I gave Him the first chance by dedicating about 20 years of my life to Him and HIm alone, even if misdirected, in my heart it was to God. Now it's His turn, and if He is the truly loving God that He is, He'll understand.