In Reply to: Plenty posted by Not enough on May 10, 2005 at 18:10:19:
In a way I had similar sentiments in the past.Sometimes I even have a glimpse of how it was as a child...it's almost that you feel how you felt, pretty innocent days.But remorse would be too dangerous, so I just have moved on, living rather in the present & having some ideas & plans about the future, plus I still see some handwritings at the wall & am content, that I have been told about it & could study up on it.
Your post left me wondering, when you left, because I tend to think, that you lived in TF more than those years from 71-73...I suppose those were the better years in comparison.
For me it were those years in the subcontinent...
on the other hand, lots of things were not in line with the teachings of Paul etc. so it was the beginning of suffering more in the consequence.
I believe, that witnessing in itself is a very fulfilling thing & may be you want to look into that?Few are the people, who also want to live a communal life, apart from the monasteries.I believe there are certain group danymics, which bring you some satisfaction & some boost to the soul...especially since it happens to be a religious group...but we all prefer to be out of TF, cause the damage far exceeded the positive.
Have to quit, cause I am leaving for Crete and for that occasion I read with my kids in Titus again...here's a quote which helped me to be thankful again for being out of TF:
KJV Titus 2:14 Who gave himself for us, that he might redeem us from all iniquity, and purify unto himself a peculiar people, zealous of good works.
For iniquity you have in the Greek anomia(s) which is the state of being without the law, as nomos is the law and prefix a without...I thought
that's what's so typical of many charismatic movements, but most of all TF...being bound by nothing, fancy free...I got cured of that.PTL.