In Reply to: Re: spirit equals electricity posted by Acheick on March 01, 2006 at 19:36:16:
Sorry for the mix up amid reading all the posts. Don't know why I was thinking Grandmother. I know that one thing for me is I was not close to either my mother or father and a loss of mine is not knowing the close connection of parents. When mine died (my father died when I was a teen) I felt a lot like the guy in "Shine" said when his dad died. He is asked "What do you feel?" and he answered "Nothing." And then expressed different things but I relate to that numbness of losing someone who SHOULD be close but was not. Or was close in a way that was largely harmful.
One thing I hurt from is realizing how even though my children are grown and did not experience much "The Family" life I was so angry after getting out. Much of my anger was against any sort of God or Higher Power.
I am sure it is normal to feel this for some after getting out. I have been out for quite awhile now, but still it hurts to see that absence of connecting with something greater that became part of their lives and still is today.
We are close but I hope maybe one day they will find something that inspires them beyond going thru the motions of life.
Don't get me wrong, they are doing good, just wish that part was not destroyed. Pray for us and our healing if you would. TY.