In Reply to: Re: spirit equals electricity posted by Zither on March 01, 2006 at 20:59:44:
I will most certainly pray for you.
I was VERY angry after leaving TF, for quite a few years. I was angry at God, first, then myself second. If it hadn't been for my children keeping me busy and occupied, I don't know how I would have made it.
I would think of that poem about the footsteps in the sand. I told God, "OK, if you are really God, then you are going to have to carry me like in that poem, because I have been so burned, I cannot follow anything." I believe God answered that prayer, but it took quite a bit of time and soul searching.
I think that is what hurt me most about TF rip off of my life - the destruction of that connection I had with my creator. If you had known me in the beginning, I was so dedicated and committed to following God and the bible. I was so loyal. Now I can hardly turn the page of any bible. I like reading what others write though. For some reason, that is ok, but opening a bible is like opening the pages of my life in TF and I just can't do it.
I know what you mean about worrying about your children. I know I messed up their lives by my poor choices. And yet, they have managed to overcome so many of those hurdles and I credit them for that. Some of them are very Christian oriented, some are not. I don't push any of them in it, but I do pray for them.