Posted by CB on February 08, 2012 at 14:01:20
In Reply to: Re: You are so wrong posted by I Feel Terrible on February 05, 2012 at 23:29:08:
Good to hear from you and get right sized.
Interacting with you has taken a great deal of emotional energy--this isn't your fault, but it has presented itself as a problem for both of us. Are you familiar with the Jungian psychological concept of the Shadow? For me, it's like the creative side of the brain--dark and sinester, but when confronted, enormously powerful in bringing new life and spiritual renewal.
As I've said elsewhere, your issues and process are very close to my own and opening myself up to your reality has triggered a bunch of stuff--Put me on my own emotional bender of sorts. I trust the process of letting things play out, messy as they are at times.
Maybe I am a Christian, too, but also a complicated one. Hence, the appearance of a chameleon. A survival technique.
There's a very interesting essay and book on the subject of God's cruelty that might interest you. The book is called Facing the Abusing God: A Theology of Protest, by David Blumenthal. He makes an argument for confronting God in faithful defiance. Sort of like the way I've confronted you and the way you have confronted me. My very dear friend, an atheist exer, turned me onto his work. Probably the best way to get your head wrapped around Blumenthal's thesis (the book is quite daunting, imo) is to read the dialog between him and Julie Shoshanna Pfau in "The Violence of God."
Sorry if I dissapoint you by intellectualizing the process at this point, but that's one way I cope on this website.
I will respond to you elsewhere when I have time & energy. Just to let you know I appreciate your ability to be real.