Posted by I Feel Terrible on February 05, 2012 at 23:29:08
In Reply to: Re: Now I'm really sticking my neck out posted by CB on February 05, 2012 at 22:20:46:
You are so so so dead-on wrong. You misunderstand me big time. I know I haven't made it easy.
I don't get you or feel safe with you either. You are changing colors like a chameleon.
First you act all understanding and apologize for being triggered. At first I am cautious but I reply, but you ignore me then post me some youtubes, I joke back and you appreciate it, then I decide to respond to your earlier questions but you still ignore me, and now you're jumping all over me like you don't know anything about me. Now you are playing the victim. LOL!
Check it out, I haven't hardly responded to PD at all, it was just Farmer. I like PD's gentle sideways approach. He's just there, but not pushing.
Yes I believe in God in goofy-ass Christian ways, thanks to my parents joining a cult. Maybe I am Christian but a complicated one. You say your Christianity has a big tent? Well here you go leaving me out in the cold because I am difficult. How does that make you any different from the other small tent Christians you decry?
I think God can be cruel. Just like you. And me. I haven't found any evidence to suggest I am wrong. I am looking to prove otherwise.
Yes, I am on an emotional bender, one that I don't know how to get our of. I asked for help to understand God isn't really mean and devious, so lullabies or fairy tales or bible sermons just won't do it for me. I was looking for some realpersonal experiences.
I am sorry for upsetting everyone. Maybe best I go away so you all can all hang around and get back to patting each other on the back. Farmer can have his spot back and tell us what's new in India and bang heads with his 500 pound bible and multiconcordance.