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       1. (Tongues & kisses:) "Behold, I have loved him, regardless of his erratic behaviour!" (Tongues & kisses) "Behold, I have loved thy Father anyhow, with the seven kisses I have given him!" (Tongues) "Behold I have required of thee that thou shouldst love him, that thou shouldst have faith in thy Father, with the seven kisses of His Word that I have given thee!" (Tongues) "Behold how thou shouldst love him with great love, Thy Father that I have given thee for seven kisses of His Word!"
       2. (Tongues:) "Oh how the spirit of thy father yearneth over his children in love for their salvation!" TYJ! (Tongues:) "See how he scattereth the kisses of his love to save his children & to give them the love of thy Father? See? He gives love & never ceaseth, & love beyond your comprehension. He gives love & kisses of much love which thou cannot understand!" O Jesus, precious Jesus, in Jesus' name! (Maria: What more?)
       3. (Sings:) "Oh what more could I aspire to? I'm on Heaven's doorstep giving love to you!" (Maria, tongues.) Yes, it is enough! It is enough! (Maria: What is?) The love I have given to you is enough, & more than you deserve, much more than anyone else can give you!--In Jesus' name, amen. So now your Prophet needs to go to sleep, in Jesus' name, amen. Because he may not live many more days, because of his weakness of the flesh. He cannot sustain many more days of such diabolical suffering that Satan gives him in his night hours! He just cannot!
       4. I think He gives me over to Satan to kill me, I guess because it's my time, huh? Otherwise why would He let me suffer like this, huh? You can't save me. You try, but you can't. Techi wants to save me, she tries but she can't.--Because it is my own sins. (Maria: What sins?) My own sins! (Maria: What sins?) What is that verse? My own sins have condemned me. (Maria: What sins?) "Behold, for by My grace I have saved thee! And by My mercy I have tempered My judgements that thou mayest not die until thy time!" Even though I deserve it, deserve to die. Don't you understand me? (Maria: Well, we all deserve to die.) But I deserve to die more than any other man, because I probably could have done more to save more people. I was selfish, I was tired, I was weak. I had foibles. And I guess I was just too weak to die. Amen. (Maria, tongues.)
       5. Don't pray against it, Honey! There's no use praying against it! (Maria: Was I praying against it?) Yes, of course! (Maria: I didn't know I was.) You know you are, Honey! You know you're praying against my death. (Maria: I didn't know I was, what did I say?) Honey, you know my heart, you know my feeling, you know how you feel, you know you're praying against my death! (Maria: What was I saying?) What more can I say than that? You're praying against my death! (Maria: Can you interpret?) I did!
       6. (Maria, tongues:) You say, "Please give me the life of David & please don't let him expire now because I need him!" What more do you want to know? Go ahead. (Maria, tongues:) "Because he is like unto me the voice of Moses in the desert to the people of Israel, that they might not expire, that they might have life & survive!" Okay? (Maria, tongues:) "Moses is unto me as my Father David, because I want him to live!" (Maria, tongues:) "Moses is unto me as the life of God & the faith of my Father!" (Maria, tongues:) "Moses is like unto me the life of my Father!" (Maria, tongues:) "So therefore give unto me this life of Moses that I may live!" (Maria, tongues:) "There fore give me Moses & give me David that I may have my Father!" (Maria, tongues:) "Therefore please let me live in the life of my Father & let me have my Father!" (Maria, tongues:) "Because Moses is my Father & I cannot live without my Father David!"
       7. (Maria, tongues:) "Moses is the life that I live, as he is the life of my father!" (Maria, tongues:) "Moses is the one that I love. He is the father of my love!" (Maria, tongues:) "He is the one that I love the most of all men upon Earth & I count as my Father because he is my Father!" (Maria, tongues:) "Heis the one I love above all other men upon the face of the Earth, because I count him as my very Father!" (Maria, tongues:) "He is the one I love more than any father that I have ever loved!" (Maria, tongues:) "He is the one that I love the most of all, more than any other father!" (Maria, tongues:) "He is the one I want to live with & to love with more than anyone else!" (Maria, tongues:) "Moses is my love, Moses is my life, Moses is my Father!"
       8. (Maria, tongues:) "Therefore I say this in the favour of my father, that I plead that he may live!" (Maria, tongues:) "So that my love may be fulfilled in my Father David!" (Maria, tongues:) "And Moses will be my Father forever & be my Father for all!" (Maria, tongues:) What? (Maria, tongues:) "So that I may have fulfilment of my love in this my Father!" (Maria tongues:) "Moses is my Father & he is my love, who I love more than any other lover!" (Maria, tongues:) "For this is the one that I have chosen to love above all others as my Father!" (Maria, tongues:) "Because this is the Father of all my loves, for David is my Father!" (Maria, tongues:)
       9. "Because Moses is the one that I love above all others, even more as my father!" (Maria, tongues:) "Because Moses is the one who is actually the Father of us all!" (Maria tongues:) "Because Moses is the one who is the Father of the Family of us all!" (Maria tongues:) "Because Moses is the one who is the Family & the Father of us all!" (Maria, tongues:) "Because this is my love, my Moses, my David, Your love above all!" (Maria, tongues:) "Moses is my love, Moses is my David, Moses is my Father!" (Maria, tongues:) "Because you see that I must have Moses & he must be my Father!" (Maria, tongues:)
       10. "Because Moses is my father & Moses is my shepherd & Moses is my love & Moses is my father!" (Maria tongues:) (Dad, tongues & kisses) "Because I love Moses, I love him as a father, & I love him as a lover, & I love him forever!" (Maria, tongues:) "Because he is my father & he is my David & I love him more than a father!" (Maria, tongues:) "And how I love with such great love this David who is my Father & lover of all!" (Maria, tongues:) What? (Maria, tongues:) "Because this Moses is the love of my Father & the wonderful love that I love of fathers above all others!" (Maria tongues:) "Because he is my Father & the love of the heart of my Father, that he is my Father David!" (Maria, tongues:)
       11. Come on, you shouldn't be saying so much about Moses & Papa because it's just getting to be a little monotonous! You keep saying that Moses is your Father, Moses is your love, your Father is your love & love is your Father. What good is it to keep saying that? (Maria, tongues:) "Because I love to express my love for my Father!" Ha! (Maria tongues:) "Because I like to talk about the love of my Father that is fulfilled in the love of my David!"
       12. Come on, Honey, that's enough about David & Father & all that stuff! Honey? (Maria, tongues) My God, there's so much repetition here, talking about the love of Moses & the love of David, that you love him! We heard about that already! Why don't you give us something different? (Maria, tongues:) "What more can I say than I have already said of the love of my Father David, who is my Moses!" That's enough! The spirit of the Prophet is subject to the Prophet! (1Cor.14:32) (Maria, tongues) No, no, no! You cannot talk any more about the love of Moses & your love for your Father David! It's just absolutely endless, there's no way to end it! That's enough! It's enough for you to love your Father & love your Moses & love your David & love love love love love so much, I get sick & tired of it!
       13. Oh my Lord, my God, how much can you love any man or woman? Excuse me, I've gotta go potty. My Lord, this potty is getting full. (Maria: Can I empty it?) No, you can't empty anything, Honey, you're so full you never ever empty! My God! I try to get you empty & I give you everything you ask for & you still want more! You're the infinite woman! I give you so many many interpretations, I feed you, feed you so much much much much, but you never get enough! (Maria: Well, I can't stop as long as we're getting it!) You want more & more & more about your Father & about Moses & about David! Yes you can! The spirit of the Prophet is subject to the Prophet! You can stop & have a little bit of mercy on your Prophet!
       14. My God, what do you want? How much do you want, sweet baby, from the Prophet, from Moses & David & Jesus & everybody! Please? Goodnight, Sweetheart! (Maria: Let's go to sleep, all right?) You promise? (Maria: Yes, right now.) You promise you won't ask me for any more? (Maria: If you don't say anything else. I'll turn over & go to sleep. Thank you, my Love. I love you!)
       15. You're insatiable! Impossible! You are impossible & insatiable! And though I give you everything & so much & so much & so much, you're still not satisfied! (Maria: Goodnight!) You don't really mean it. (Maria: I do!) No, you don't! No, you don't! I know you don't, because you would want more if you can get it! But I'm not going to give it to you because I'm tired, & I am not going to give you any more! Did you hear me? Maria? (Maria: Yes Sir, goodnight.) So stop!
       16. Stop sucking on the Prophet! I'm not going to give you any more because you're mean to me! You're cruel to me! You're unmerciful to me! (Maria: No I'm not, Honey!) Yes, you were, you kept sucking & sucking & getting more & more & more, even though the Prophet was tired! (Maria: It's beautiful, Honey!) So it's beautiful! If I'm tired & I'm sick & I'm disgusted, you say it's beautiful. (Maria: Didn't it encourage you?) Why? (Maria: It should encourage you, it's from the Lord!) Why should I be encouraged when you ask for so much?
       17. (Maria: Goodnight, Honey, I won't say another word to you now. Goodnight!) I don't believe you! (Maria: I'll show you.) I know you're lying, because the minute you get a chance you're going to try to get in another word! The minute you get a chance you're going to try to squeeze out another word! I know you! You don't have any mercy! You don't have any patience! All you want is the Word! You suck & suck & suck for seed, that's all you want to do! You are an insatiable woman & all you want to do is suck me, suck me & suck me for seeds!--And fuck me & fuck me & fuck me! But that's okay, that's the way the Lord made you for the sake of all your children. That's okay, Honey Baby, I love you anyway, because you do it for all your children! Maria! Maria! (Maria: I'm asleep, Honey.)
       18. You do it! Why don't you admit it? Why don't you admit that you suck seeds for your children? Why don't you admit you want to have lots & lots & thousands & thousands & thousands of children! (Maria: Yes, Honey, but let's go to sleep now.) We can't go to sleep & have children, we have to fuck! (Maria: But I'm tired, it's 7 o'clock in the morning.) No, you're not tired!--You want to fuck & fuck & fuck & fuck & have thousands & thousands & thousands of children!

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