In Reply to: Not to that extent posted by WC on June 05, 2002 at 18:59:23:
I won't make excuses for Berg and what he did. He knew better, as far as I'm concerened, and perhaps that could be a part of why he was a drunk. I don't know. Do you think it may have been that - that he knew he was guilty? According to Kent, he was molested as a boy, but from my understanding of Berg's understanding, he loved it. Or was the drinking a way to numb the pain of being what some might consider him being - a social outcast, perhaps a bit of nerd. He (Berg) said it himself, that nobody like him, and that he was always a loner, burying himself in his studies, and then the alcohol. Could some of his drinking be attributed to not only his social failures, but perhaps his marrital failure - you know, just another failure in a long list of failures? And what about Arraon's suicide? (Was he a drunk before that?) There's lot of pain to numb in all of those things. Whatever!
I used to get happy and have a lot of fun too when I used to have a toot. And, like you, I can't remember not ever remembering. Can't hardly drink at all anymore though. It just doesn't appeal to me. If I've got some pain to numb, I'll eat. Fortunately, I don't put on the pounds too easily, and can usually work them off if I do.
The Fam was my AA for my drug and alcohol abuse, just as these ex member boards have been my FA (FamAholic) support group - my new recovery group, helping me to recover from my former recovery group. Phew!