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Why I am no longer in the family:

Posted by Warrior Woman on August 01, 2002 at 22:19:24:

I want to think for myself.

I have a path of my own, and on it I am not subservient to a man or to a god.

I hated distributing stupid stuff for long hours with hefty quotas.

I enjoy having a life of my own, and building on my since of worth, self-esteem.

I can believe in positive and negative energies vs. a MAN god with a MAN son and MEN disciples according to words written by MEN for a MAN (King James)

I can honor men for their qualities and expect the same in return for mine.

I can schedule my own day, or not.

I can sleep with who I CHOOSE to sleep with.

I can own pets.

I don't have to move everytime someone else says to or there is bad publicity or whatever.

I can listen to whatever music I want to.

I can have private time.

I can have locks on my bathroom door and enjoy a long hot soaking bath, with salts and candles and scents, and it is not VAIN, it is relaxing and nurturing.

I am somebody. Not some thing. Not some object.

I have already been to hell,(Family life,after the fix wears off) so I am not afraid of threats
that God will burn me forever and ever.

I can dream, even daydream, and it is okay. (as long as I am not driving!

I don't have to read crap or do shit that is disgusting and degrading because I understand that my gut feeling is not "the devil" but it is there for my self protection.

I don't have to be a baby factory and produce kids that won't get the education they deserve.

I can have my own opinions. I can agree and disagree with whoever I want to.

I could go on ad infinitum. But if you read this and you are IN the family, I hope you think about it. Because there is an Internet now, you know where to look for support if you ever want to get out. You can e-mail from a library. Go to a small branch, and librarians there will help you if you don't know how.

If you are a woman, go to a Womans Shelter and take your kids. You don't have to be physically hit to be severely abused and battered.