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I certainly do

Posted by Acheick on October 04, 2002 at 09:18:20

In Reply to: Thoughts on turning 50 posted by Old timer on October 03, 2002 at 15:03:48:

I feel like that too, like I have to do all this stuff that I never could do before. I see that in my older children also. Some of them are waiting a long time before marriage or children because that's all they did in the COG/FOG was look after kids and didn't have a childhood like everyone else. Now they want to live it - they sing that song from Peter Pan - "I'm never gonna grow up..." As for me, I just want to do as much running around and independent stuff as I can. I want to Hike, fish, raft, canoe, boat, sail, write, read, whatever I can do that I couldn't before either because I was left at home raising kids or not allowed to do any of those things because I was in the F.

I remember being in an Asian country and never able to go and see the tourist sites because "we were Christians" and those were Buddhist images, and because we weren't tourists, so I missed it all. Now I want to go back completely as a tourist and get to see the things I lived down the street from but couldn't go to.

Yeah, I relate. I see the end of life approaching, all my parents' friends and older relatives have either passed on or are in nursing homes and it starts looking closer and closer all the time. It makes me want to be as active as I can be before I can't do normal things anymore. It makes me want to put my affairs in order, write things down for history sake, hug my children more, spend time with my grandchildren, etc., etc. All of a sudden, time seems so short.