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Controlling through Fear

Posted by Donny on October 12, 2002 at 18:03:33

Below, Achieck said, "But berg's whole dogma was fear and I didn't realize it until I left because when I was in it I couldn't see the forest for the trees, as they say. It is amazing to me how all the nightmares I was having in the F. stopped once I stopped living my life in fear."

That's so true. They ruled us through fear, fear that God will be disappointed in us, fear that God would judge us, fear that God would find some clever way to kill us, fear that God would make us suffer and die of horrible diseases that would make us scream out in pain, fear that God would delight to kill our children.

When I was about to leave and knew leadership was out to lunch, my conditioning still made me have nightmares of dying in a plane crash. I ignored it, recognizing that that dream "came through a multitude of business" of my programming.

Then there was the fear of losing a lifetime of friends, fear of being looked down upon and shunned by those we had loved, fear of losing our mates, fear of losing our children, and again, fear of God murdering us because we had stopped sucking the paps of David.

Barf all that fear conditioning into the toilet bowl, pull the chain and don't even bother to say goodbye.

I strongly resent being controlled by fear. And they damn well knew what they were doing. Even now when Family members are told that they have so much freedom, under that layer of candy coating their motivations are controlled by fear. Try honestly thinking of leaving for even the best and most sane of motives and all that mental condition of fear of loss and being killed by an angry, disgusted God sets in. Well that's not how I understand God and when I realized in no uncertain terms that Family leaders were mere men and women with their own agenda trying to control me---

That's when the fear completely left. Because I knew they didn't have the furious wrath of a God made in Berg's image to back up their threats. They had no anointing and no authority. If I wanted to please God I sure as hell didn't need to submit to them and let them do what they wanted with my mind and my life.