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point well taken

Posted by MV on November 23, 2002 at 08:38:06

In Reply to: That is not what the record shows posted by Passing By on November 23, 2002 at 07:28:32:

Thank you Passing By for your unbiased comments. I do not get offended if people do not agree with me. Frankly it doesn't matter so much. I post my own experiences and lessons as honestly as I can and if they help others in their recovery then I'm happy. If not then people can disagree and post their disagreement or simply ignore them. That's what I do. We have choices now. And it does take two to tango.

It seems that I may be in the minority in the guilt-riddance department. But that doesn't take away from the gravity of the issues I had to face in the process of breaking the cycle of guilt. I just haven't shared such deeply personal details in such a public forum. But trust me they're very serious and very real. And am still very much grappling with them. But the point is, I've broken the cycle. Berg has lost his power over me in this area and I am regaining control. The bottom line in any healing is empowerment and the key to that is unique to every individual.

We are all in different stages of healing and the sooner we break the vicious cycles (whether they be guilt, shame, fear, everything that enchained us) the better. Yes this is how it works for me and you could be right that it may indeed be denial. But hey that is the coping mechanism that I probably need right now to keep me from taking one baby step forward and two giant steps back and succumb to depression. Maybe in future I will discover truths different from what I hold now. But that's for then. For now, this is my truth.