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Re: How do we measure guilt and blame

Posted by Acheick on January 22, 2003 at 16:43:31

In Reply to: Re: How do we measure guilt and blame posted by goth88 on January 22, 2003 at 15:01:16:

Good points, Goth. I, for one, have had enough of silence restriction and being pummeled by F. leaders, sent to fast and pray for days and days. I don't need other people doing it for me again. If my own children have forgiven me, I have no idea who else holds anything against me. Mostly in the F. I was emotionally and sexually abused. I personally did not actively and consciously hurt and abuse others. There is only one real incident I can recall that I feel I hurt someone else and if I could ever find that person, I would apologize profusely. I know I hurt my children simply by raising them in a cult, but they have forgiven me. Bottom line is, what were the itentions? I never intended for anyone to be hurt and if I thought I was hurting someone would have stopped immediately or taken some sort of drastic measures to leave. For a long time I couldn't leave because my children were sent to different places, with my exhusband's approval. I was often powerless of what was going on. I agree with you, there is a lot of healing that needs to take place.