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Re: Maybe you also feel this way..? Addition to the " getting rich" po

Posted by Acheick on February 13, 2003 at 07:01:10

In Reply to: Maybe you also feel this way..? Addition to the " getting rich" post posted by tigress on February 13, 2003 at 01:24:58:

I know what you are feeling. You know, when I first started working, I had this horrible feeling that I should be out sacrificing something and dying for something and that I was wasting my life away. It was and is a battle I go through often. So much indoctrination that does not go away easily. The thing is, it's the paycheck that puts food on the table and clothes on the backs of your children, that's how I have to look at it. Yes, everyone should be able to work in the job they love, but when you start out like we did, a dollar short and a day late, that's not so easy to do anymore. We made our bed and we have to sleep in it. I'm happy because I know I'm doing an honest days work, unlike in the F. where we were just leeches, living off of other people's hard work. I never felt good about that. I hated looking at everyone with dollar signs in my eyes. "What can I get from them, how can I make use of them." All the while with a big smile on my face and words of how much I love the world. It was bogus. I think that's why when I get around current F. members I just start cringing, my skin crawls, I know what they are thinking.