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Re: Go on please

Posted by singles anonymous on March 02, 2003 at 23:47:18

In Reply to: Re: Go on please posted by WOW on March 02, 2003 at 19:57:43:

So we've established that you're male and that you don't get an erection if you find your partner unattractive. Fair enough. That's something you cannot fake. An advantage women have. I think I must have learned how to fake orgasm in TF.

Being a single mother is probably one of the worst fates any woman could have in the group. We were usually the first ones home shepherds would choose to not only to share with but to put in other 'needy" brothers' schedules (because the married sisters were either pregnant or had jealousy issues so dealing with a single sister was loads less complicated). My response in my early days was disgust and resistance which eventually wore out due to incessant powwows on the law of love and sacrifice plus all that guilt for not being yielded enough. So for survival I decided to obey and get on with it. So every 'encounter' with someone I had no feelings for (notice the difference, he could be attractive but I didn't care for him) would be a mechanical function. Yup, what's love got to do with it? None, not the real kind anyway, but the assembly line variety we were subjected to.

Not that I didn't enjoy sex at all but that the only times I truly enjoyed it was with the men I was in love with and those encounters were very limited at best (because the minute the shepherds knew there was something more than sex going on, they'd put me on word studies on putting Jesus first, etc). Meaningful relationships didn't have a chance to blossom. I'm still reeling from the effects of that to this day.

Yes a poll on gender-based abuse would be interesting, but I dare say predictable.