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Re: success and failure?

Posted by romantic reflections on March 14, 2003 at 07:38:04

In Reply to: Re: I thot I'd answered that one posted by Singleton on March 13, 2003 at 23:52:24:

It depends on what you mean by failing. I have had a couple of very important relationships and a few encounters...you know, briefer stuff but much longer and meaningful than sharing at any level. :-)

the way I see it is if something is really worth an involvement you cannot count on 'forever' as being the ultimate goal as much as all of us hope for that at an emotional level. Forever is a construct and it may be reality at times, but forever is the now you live day by day.

I have suffered greatly after the end of my 2 main relationships, but if they were worth a LOT to start with, if there was meaning in them all along, if I have truly LOVED, then I also accept the fact that life is growth and each one has left me with more healing, and more sense of who I am, and what I can give or receive. At this point of my life I think the process is worth more than the destination...because I trust the universe if a person comes along that is meant to stay with me for the long run IT WILL HAPPEN. It is this kind of faith that I rely on the most, and it has come with a clearer sense of identity as I gradually came into myself after years of rebuilding after having left.