what happened?

I met some of the most precuious people of my life in the family. Little sheep with a desire to do something positive in this evil world. When i first joined the family in 1972 I knew I was loved by precious people. How did it go wrong? In Nicaragua there was Sara,Aron (young people} all of us who just wanted to do the right thing for the Lord. I felt guilty all my life for leaving Nicaragua with my wife when the leadership took over with the new big mansion get rich fish vision.
When Shulla and i arrived in Central America there was no leadership. They all backslid. There were my pregnant wife and I in a pile of sheep in El Salvador we aotomatic became sheperds 1976. Boy oh boy a dumb sheep like me a young one who just wanted to kick the gong. Heaven. Such precious brothers. I'll never forget them. We got deported to Honduras and then fled to Nicaragua. Once again no leaders I had to pray and go looking for a doctor to deliver our first child. God did lots o0f miracles and Timothy was born. Leaders finally came. I had gotten rid of the expensive house in the city. It was like slaying a dragon but the new bishops freaked. I couldn't put it into words. We were relieved and told we were getting a giant big house and to have faith. We were offered the closet or the road. We left and went back. I felt guilty for the brothers who loved and looked up to us. It started getting complicated to serve the Lord. ecided to try a different country. The Dominician Republic. Shula and I really wanted to serve the Lord. WHAT WENT WRONG? Are all of us weak nobodys to blame for not being good material? Jesus used dumb fishermen Why was the door closed? I'll talk about the DR and how changed the fam was. The tree started to bear good fruit I guess but what happened?