Where did my faith go?

Ever since leaving the family I´m wondering if all what I learned and expieriencend about the Word and Prayers was not for real? Does that mean that I didn´t really live this? I am sure that what is going through my head is not the only case that happens to people that leave the family. That´s why I´m writing here to somehow get an answer if there is any at all. Can YOU help me? Thanks for taking the time. -Erika-