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Re: Why

Posted by An FG on January 10, 2005 at 00:41:23

In Reply to: Why did FG not report? posted by Jo on January 09, 2005 at 16:50:13:

"WHY DID FG NOT REPORT WHAT WE CLEARLY SEE AS ABUSES NOW THAT WE ARE OUT OF THE FAMILY, WHILE WE WERE IN THE FAMILY?"

As a victim of a cult that robbed me of my life and mind, upon coming out I had to detox, get on my feet, feed my family, recover, re-integrate into society, deal with my own pre-COG abuses, before I fully understood what had taken place could be defined as abuse.

I joined the COG at a very young age, with my own history of childhood abuse. I was running away and trying to survive when I got recruited into what I thought was a loving family. They used my youthful zeal and idealism, and I was convinvced I had joined the peace corps. I spent years in there completely distracted from taking care of issues of the self, for that is what they taught and controlled. I never got to process my own past with as an adult equipped with the right emotional tools and experience. I suspended my own process of understanding what had happened to me. After leaving it took time to get to a point where I could pick up where I left off, and get into fixing and healing. I was then able to identify my own upbringing as severly abusive, and understand that what had happened to some children in the COG (including my own) was also abusive.

Just how does one go about making a report years after the fact, with little to go on but bible names and places and colonies that no longer exist?