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Posted by on March 20, 2005 at 20:06:53

When I fell in love for the first time in my life I felt so blesseed to have met her. She was my life my love and my other 1/2. The beautiful mother of my children.

When she was murdered, stabbed 13 times by a crazy person my life was ripped away from me. I suffered so much guilt and hopelessness and wanted to die but I had my children. I was the happiest person with my family and wife. I felt like we were glowing with God's blessing and then it all ended.

I was so devastated and needy when I received my copy of a letter from David. My despair was so deep my soul was ripped so deep in pain and then maybe hope from my family and David. Boom I'm on my own everyone got it wrong. IRFER'S BEWARE.

I've felt guilty and lost for most of my life a backslider away from happiness and God but when I reached out on the boards I found help which led me out of the destruction of that letter and away from the Family . I've met friends when I've been alone and this has helped me to try to reach out and try to be free.

I just want everyone to know that I couldn't have made it without you. Thanks each and every one who responded to me and showed me.
Love you all