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Re: thanks for that

Posted by susie on May 20, 2005 at 21:50:35

In Reply to: thanks for that posted by lydia on May 20, 2005 at 14:31:59:

Thanks. I suppose to you it was such a short time we were together in that house but for me it was one of the painful times of my life. My first baby was brand new, I was extremely mentally unstable: holding on by a thread. My milk was drying up, my husband was going out every night to clubs with the boys and bringing home women or not coming home at all. My weakness at the time was exploited and taken advantage of. One morning I awoke to find my husband had not come home. I asked M where he was and he would not tell me. I think I became hysterical although the day is very blurry. I probably spent it crying. That night the guys decided that I should leave the house and told me to go the Parramatta home which for those of you who dont know was way at the other side of the city. I was told to take my tiny baby and catch the train at about 10pm. As I was about to walk out that door Serena took pity on me and offered to help me and come with me. My cowardly husband actually joined me the next day (conscience?) but that night made me see the underside of human nature. It probably doesn't sound that bad and I know a lot worse happened to me in the Family but it affected me deeply for some reason.
Well, there's a little free therapy for me:)