In Reply to: Exactly posted by Oldtimer on October 06, 2005 at 14:46:23:
And every family is different too. Everybody has a slightly different story. My kids actually love to make fun of me and laugh at my silly hippie days. I try to forget it and they keep bringing it up. For some reason, it's quite humorous to them. Now we just all laugh about it together - Mom the hippie - har har har.
I was like you, I wanted nothing to do with anything that reminded me of TF, why I joined, how good it was in the beginning, it was all so wrong and I was so traumatized that I could be so wrong. So when they'd bring it up and mock me I'd get all offended. I didn't want to think about it. I guess it was good therapy for all of us to laugh though. I'm not proud of my life, but I'm proud of my children and that is all a person can really hope for.
The thing is, Jim didn't really stay in for that long so he kind of holds himself up in a different view as if he was in when things were good and left when it got bad. I dont look at it that way - it was never good, even when I thought it was because even if the sexual part was hidden and I didn't know about it, there was other stuff that was just not right. I see it now, but I didn't then or didn't want to because I was so convinced I was following God. I thought I was bearing the pain as a good soldier of Christ. I was deceived and that was from the beginning and so was Jim and anyone at any time - we were all deceived. We thought we were following God and that was a deception.