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My childhood motivation: fear of "blood on my hands"

Posted by Jeremiah 3:17-19 on October 25, 2005 at 18:35:54

In Reply to: Re: Family members and saving souls posted by Perry on October 25, 2005 at 16:52:29:

For me, as a lonely child in the first wave who only ever encountered a few children older than me, behind my witnessing as a mere toddler and thereafter, there lurked a foreboding of what would happen if I did not try to get people "saved." To me and to them.

The source of the dread was pinpointed in a verse from the set card that terrified me then:

"Son of Man, I have made the a watchman unto the house of Israel, therefore hear the word at my mouth and give them warning from me [] When I say unto the wicked, Thou shalt surely die; and thou givest him not warning, nor speakest to warn the wicked from his wicked way, to save his life; the same wicked man shall die in his iniquity; but his blood will I require at thine hand.

Then it goes on to say (is it afterwards?), but if you warn the wicked and he turn not from his wickedness, "thou hast delivered thine soul."

I had to deliver my soul. Constantly.

And another aspect of witnessing: I learned to sing to strangers on the street at the drop of a hat or approach them with a tract and a smilt or whatever because a cute child gets more sympathy -- and donations.

Then there is another motivation for the drive to save souls. Remember how each soul is a star in your crown, "he that winneth souls is wise," etc.? In Chancellor's book it says how they have few material possessions. But in the afterlife they expect to lead, they will be ruling the world and surrounded by fabulous riches. Just look at the gems and gold in the posters. I find it materialistic, even if the material wealth you expect is in another world/life.