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Re: So sorry to hear that

Posted by susie on November 10, 2005 at 00:26:47

In Reply to: So sorry to hear that posted by Observer on November 09, 2005 at 18:50:16:

Yeh those testimonies used to make me angry and guilty at the same time. I knew I wasn't enjoying it and hearing about others who were loving it made me feel like there was something wrong with me. In my last month in Hong Kong I didn't even bother witnessing to guys anymore. I just said to myself 'well I'm a prostitute and that's that. I knew I was leaving then and I was just counting the days till I could go home. When I got to Bangkok ( I had to be there for a month before I flew to sydney) I refused to FF or escort and I was completely ostracised by everyone including my husband. We fought everyday because I said point blank "Im not doing it anymore". I only had one month to wait out and I just kept looking at a picture of the sydney harbour bridge that was on a calendar in the home and focused on getting home. It was one tough month i can tell you.