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My experience is like I described

Posted by Thinker on August 10, 2007 at 11:06:55

In Reply to: Berg the "Illuminati"....Photius of the end posted by Farmer on August 10, 2007 at 10:01:40:

My experience is pretty much as I described it. If I wasn't a zombie in cataleptic state, I was certainly a zombie in that my reflexes and responses to stimulii were conditioned. I did have free moments to my thoughts but my mind was tethered. You don't wonder/wander very far with a mental ball and chain. If you read about Stockholm syndrome, and about crime cases like the woman who was kept as a slave and had total freedom to come and go yet returned every night from work to sleep in a box under her master's bed, you know mind control is not a myth.

No matter how you desribe your own experience of freedom, I don't think most of us had our full thinking faculties intact, by joining a cult. That entailed an all-or-nothing faith, surrendering your mind. We weren't just loyal or enthusiastic employees of some company going through hard times, or members of some club who could simply quit. We were sold out on an ideaology, and we joined a group that made sure you couldn't be in it if you weren't.

When I finally did have some moments to think, I was thinking about how to get out. It wasn't easy and took more than two years because I had burned all my bridges and had nothing to fall back on. And that burning-bridges thing that TF made us do was also part of what holds the mind captivates -- you cannot go back on something after you've left scorched earth behind you. So trapped was I, that I had to apply everything TF taught me about leaping out by faith, onto my exit. I was "pioneering" the new field of leaving TF in mind body and spirit.

Does this mean I deny culpability and responsibility for joining? Hell no. Yes I was attracted to something, I was escaping my own hellish life and looked to TF for salvation. But I was also deceived into buying something that wasn't real, through the onion syndrome -- no one hardly ever sees right through to the rotten core of the cult from the onset -- TF introduces you to things in stages, and you move on to the "meaty stuff" only after they're sure you're mentally hooked on the "milk," remember?